Thursday, January 28, 2010

Resolutions

New Year Revolution Revised.

 
 

About a month ago I joined in with the rest of the world in declaring a critical

review of my previous year and deciding what 1 thing I would love to change

in the coming year. I concluded that I would attempt a no non-profit lifestyle

change. Now be certain my definition non-profit lifestyle, has nothing to do with tax code definitions, i am including here any organization, individual or entity that strives to

position its needs/desires/goals against yours. Hitherto I had interacted the with the world

in a open mind open heart disposition, which is not so much a invalid approach

as it is one that is the social equivalent of a Microsoft "security vulnerability".

thus this revolution/resolution is then a social path, initiated to secure any said vulnerability

against exploitation by "special interest "

 
 

At its root this resolution/revolution was not simply based on American greed (ego-hunger)

or the rejection of my dedication to helping others, rather it was an attempt to embrace the "hope and change" energy that the election of President Obama realized. However saying no to non-profit exploits, is the natural result of a self examination and discourse with others who have discovered that behind the "service to others" mantra is a morally bankrupt ideal and a semantic diatribe as half-baked and rational as any other coined misnomer created by special interest idealogs. "Service" in this context actually has about as much social value as the term "Partial birth abortion, sexuality conversion therapy" has in the medical community.

In reality the "non-profit' model is tantamount to self-mutilation and emotional manipulation. It is a means by which organizations, individuals and special interest create a pattern that displaces anyone's personal worthiness (spiritual to financial) , with indentured servitude in the name of

"helping others". The limits test of something that is truly worthy of being called helpful is its

universal usefulness. For example giving someone a where to receive free products or service

is helpful, because it allows the person giving the tip and the recipient to both receive products for free. Contrast this type of "help" with the idea of providing health care information to others in

in an environment that shows no regard for your health, this type of "service" provides for others at the exclusion of self. What type of "service" claims to empower a neglected sect of society, for example, women, and but also exploits this population? How about special interest manipulators?

 
 

So a month later, how well have I followed newfound philosophy? I'll give myself an B- for mostly remaining conscious of my goal but loosing points for possibly falling for a minor con-artist exploit.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Proxigean

No matter the tide

Or moon I'm in

ancient gnosis stirs deep within

As distant stars illuminate

Mercury seeks in retrograde

Wounding Eros

arrows devastate

Now every emotion

forms an ocean,

and choices storm


Will I sink or swim,

and can I win?

when waves never reach the shore

they cannot break


But I do.

Endless sea of yearning

me yearning you.

Each thought sends me deeper in

Fathoms I cannot

Fathom


I feel each missed caress

as aches

Each time the mind

reminds

the body-soul

the coldest coldness

is that of loneliness



Now

I know

why caged men sing

they desire what cannot be changed

and I do the same

,not having you here

I only sleep to dream

Saturday, March 1, 2008

Paradellean





Seduce the sky with sweet wine and lines of poetry
Seduce the sky with sweet wine, and lines of poetry
Intrigue me without speaking, dance me inward with ecstasy
Intrigue me without speaking dance me inward, with ecstasy
Dance, seduce, intrigue, me without wine and lines of ecstasy
The inward me with sky speaking sweet poetry

Between spaces like infinity, two stars invade each other's luminosity  
Between spaces like infinity two stars invade each other's luminosity
In time a reaching of a shore will come; you and I will beach from storm
In time a reaching of shore will come – you and I will beach from storm
Luminosity reaching from storm to shore, will invade spaces between two stars;
In each other's beach, You and I will come.


Castor/ Pollex us into myth, make poems weep and writers mourn
Castor Pollex us into myth. Make poems weep and writers mourn!
Love's an Angle; yet lovers learn ,burn in anguish and in bliss, are oft denied the final kiss
Love's an Angel, yet lovers learn -burn in anguish and in bliss- are oft denied the final kiss
Us, the writers oft make myth into poems: love's lorn Angel denied anguish, kiss, and final burn/
Pollex, Castors lover in bliss; yet weep and mourn! 

Two lovers reaching... will a kiss
Invade each other's luminosity; make sweet wine, poems, and myth
You and I  (Castor and Pollex) will burn in bliss
In space between us -infinity, a beach without shore, a sky in storm
In time, angels, stars and us without speaking  - weep and mourn

Eros erudvit

Not of sex, rather sexualities

Locus of invisible visibilities

cunilingus as metaphor

for so much more

that thing, that thing. that thang...

embracing him, her, him/him them, and us-

a species of translation - Eros reads us, body & soul.
Want not as direction, but compass
Souls don't move toward what they need, they move boundless towards what is needed.
 -They float on desire

Saturday, September 29, 2007

silentline

You never hear a word of what I
might have said.

So now you're here
pondering the places I go
imagining the places that path might
have led.


I don't blame you for thing
or how it came to pass.
Always been the one trapped in the past
I'm just as much a fool when hesitating time
as when expecting this lust to last

So now you linger where once I
was; 1/2 past 12 picking up the phone
listening to a silent line.